Maybe it’s the oncoming winter, maybe it’s withdrawal after how awesome last weekend was, maybe it’s the phase of the moon, or some weird pollen in the air, but this weekend I’m feeling really low and grumpy.
I’m grumpy about how behind I am with sewing, and grumpy that I still haven’t managed to show you The Project (I keep scheduling photoshoots, and every time I have one all ready to go, something comes up and I have to postpone). I’m grumpy that the house is messy, and that I have to cook dinner, and with how I parked the car, and that I made a stupid grammatical error in an email and hit ‘send’ before I noticed it. I’m grumpy that there is nothing good on TV, and that it’s cold, and that the heater makes it too hot, and that I’ve probably made a number of grammatical errors in this paragraph, because I’m grumpy…
Well, they are all dumb, silly things to be grumpy about. I know I’ve accomplished a lot, and that my sewing is going to be beautiful, and that life is good, and yet my brain still decides to jump on something really, really inconsequential, and freak the heck out about it. Right now it’s having a meltdown because someone made a brusque comment on a pinterest pin. My logical brain says “Really? NOT an issue! It’s a pin! You don’t know them, delete it, move on, get over it.”, but my emotional brain is hyperventilating.
You know those times when your whole world feels like it’s collapsing, even though everything is actually just fine? This is one of those times
It will pass, I know it will. And it’s something that happens to most of us. But right now it really sucks when half my brain is trying to tell me I suck!
The only thing I can really do is keep pushing forward, doing the things I know would normally make me happy, and trusting that my mind will figure out the tangle eventually. So tonight I’m going to try to finish my white sewing project, and get a good start on my black sewing project, and maybe do a little tidying, and have a cuddle with Fiss and Mr D.
Mr D will help with tea, and Fiss will help by sitting on my lap and looking up at me in adoration, and will un-help by lying all over my patterns and sewing projects just while I try to work on them, because that’s how she makes things better!
Even at their naughtiest, cat’s are rather good megrim solvers…